posted on Saturday, 25 September 2010 @ 10:33 pm
I've got nothing to strive for already. I've screwed up everything of what i'm doing especially my studies. whats the use of blogging anyway, will there even anyone will comfort me. i bet there won't be even a single one. Keeping all those feelings inside is so damn torturing. Don't ask me why can't I just pour out all those damn feelings. The fucking problems is I cannot no matter how i wanted it. Those people don't really know me always thought I'm a fucking play boy but the real me is not at all. I treat the girl I love more than my life. Those couples which is my friends out there, looking at them so sweet I'll be so happy for them but once I think of myself whenever i go out with them, I'll get upset suddenly thinking why I can't have a girlfriend which is caring, honest, trustworthy and loving. There may be quarrels and not every quarrels will end up break up but even stronger relationship and understanding for both. So, when ever i watch movie or drama i will feel like crying or even just by listening to songs too. seriously I've screwed my life big time. since its been so long i've update there won't be people be at my blog. shall update when i feel like it.
